My husband is travelling in this land, as well: (using drywall screws to make a turkey centerpiece that was mistaken for a peacock)
Spiritual masters talk about the 1000 deaths we experience as we let go of our old selves and embrace our new paths. Middle age seems to be about nostalgia for what was and a bit of confusion about what is coming. I'm going to keep reading about feisty women who said "the hell with it" and reinvented themselves over and over again. And I may try a French recipe or two....Tant pis!